My hair is turning gray. Currently I have way more dark brown than gray, but, slowly and surely this change is happening. A lot of women dye their hair not ever entertaining the idea of letting nature take its course. They think it would make them look old, or even worse, undesirable, and it is simply not an option. More and more when I look in the mirror, especially on a bright sunny day, I notice the silver strands scattered all around, and I can’t help but, in some way still be surprised to see them. At these moments they really stand out, and, my mortality hits me; I am aging. At 35 years old I don’t feel old old, but I can’t say I feel particularly young either. Time is flying by, and the gray shouts that out to me loud and clear.
The thing is…I don’t want to color my hair. I’m worried about putting such toxic chemicals right into my skin. They are cancer causing, yet many people who care about environmental toxins seem to make an exception when it comes to their hair. They buy organic food, drink filtered water, exercise, but risk their health in this common, ubiquitous way. Besides that, there’s the maintenance of it, not to mention the cost. To me, sitting in some salon every 5-6 weeks for hours makes me feel imprisoned and obligated in a way that stresses me out. I’m definitely not looking forward to losing all of my dark hair (I love the color), but I also don’t mind the amount of gray I currently have. I don’t think it makes me look unattractive, but I’m noticing how others (always women) sometimes react by the way they look at it or make a comment. I’ve heard things like “you know you’re gonna end up dyeing it”, or, “your face is too pretty to age yourself before your time”.
I see women all the time who have beautiful uncolored hair. I think, depending on the shade, it can be striking, alluring, interesting. There’s something about someone, woman or man, who accepts the trajectory of natural aging that moves me. I respect and find appealing the absence of vanity and self-consciousness and admire the positive acceptance of those not trying so hard to look younger than they are. I definitely don’t find a man unattractive who’s a silver fox. It’s such a double standard in this culture when it comes to our beauty. Men are found to be distinguished, and women, invisible, and over the hill.
Animals don’t judge our looks or give a damn about any of this. They could care less whether their human is gray. It is that attitude and their enlightened countenance that makes our furry friends all the more loveable.